since i last posted here.
i sorta kind cheated on my boyfriend.
he was an asshole. it’s no excuse. but he apparently made out with some chick at his birthday party in the clubs, where lots of people saw. and i was totally there and no one minded to tell me.. wtF?
he also wasn’t that great of a boyfriend. he punched holes in the wall and that shoulda been the deal breaker right there.
So instead i hooked up with this dude from my class. He’s older and douchier.
He became my boyfriend soon after i broke it up with the hole punching, other girl kissing asshole.
so after a few months of being with this older douche, it’s starting to fizzle.
listen he can be a good guy. but i dont know. i think things just calmed down and it wasn’t the way i thought it would be.
i thought he would constantly support me. and be there for me. i thought that he would always hold my hand when we walk down the street. i thought he would cuddle with me at bed late at night and in the mornings when we would wake up becuase the sun was so fricking bright. i thought he’d kiss me. and not just kiss me, but KISS me. like he liked me.
he used to say he loved me.
now he says he’s falling in love me.
i think we’re dying.
i makes me sad.
i dont know what to do.
